A Test Of Patience

Life has been so puzzling for me.I have really seen its enigmatic form.Its not that i dont have reason for calling life so.I do have reasons for calling life so.I have reasons and questions which each and every person on this planet has.But one thing makes me apart from all others is that i cant reveal those doubts...those questions.Yeah,I have reasons for that too(for not telling others).Uptill now you must be thinking that what this girl is upto??You must be sympathetic towards me...hopefully...must be Thinking this girl's THINKING too much...she doesnt trust anyone.And again i have reasons for that.

A very strong reason...A person who has always been backstabbed,will do what??Confused again...right.Yeah,its true...100 percent truth and with all the swearings and promises.Backstabbing has been the issue of my life,but it has given me chance to experience the taste of distrust and hatred.Yeah,every time i shed off my past experiences and start getting ahead,this happens.Backstabbing...i dont know why mother nature could make me a little bit stronger,i really need to be strong,Coz i strongly feel that i dont deserve
all this...at least one should get a chance.At least once,I can trust
a person.For once...I don know if i would ever give myself a chance again...i really have to think on that.

People live their life in different ways,i live my life on my own terms.I have never intentionally hurt somebone,never felt jealous
of anyone for being good...but i think thats a crime; being good to anyone is being foolish...yeah dont you think so...i know its true.But what to do??Maybe being the person who i am is enough reason for all this.

But what to do??Maybe being the person who i am is enough reason for all this.You would be thinking this girl needs
counselling MAN!!PLEASE DONT DO THIS !!! dont do this to the counseller,leave him,please dont do this to him.How can you destroy his life...confused...Obviously after talking to me he is surely going to need a counseller himself.He He He.

P.S. If the actual creator of my Blog has reached the end(hopefully)coz i have written pretty boring stuff,then he should be given some prize.He should be given April Fool's Trophy.Yeah i know its not 1st April but its never late then never.